My Beloved, How are you doing? I have been so down and confused the way everything about this project is moving. I must tell you that I've been trying to figure out the best way to go about this predicaments but every move i make seems aborted. Even though I’m incredibly excited to pursue this project, I feel a little bit of dread. Will I be able to find the means to continue with this project? And then me asking for your support dipped into the negative for the first time. Starring at the past, in comparison with who I am today, that person I was, before meeting you, clearly shows how much I love you and how important you are to me. In times like these I see how much I involved and how much you taught me. With no great effort, without any resource or maybe without even knowing. You're a nice person. I can't break your heart. I'm so thankful and grateful for the acceptance in my life. I understand that thing seems not to be the way we where before i came down here in Singapore and most especially now that I'm facing difficult situation that i expected a little assistant from you and all you could to is to turn away from me because of your financial status. Is obvious that you never wanna help because if you do i believe you could have done that long time but all the same thanks a lot. It has been a lesson to me and i have take things the way i see it. Don't be impulsive, understand that God has reasons for everything that is happening in our lives right now. If you want to be happy, leave everything to God. Don't try to plead nor please God to give you your whims and desires instead pray that God will give you what you truly deserve. I have loved you sincerely with open heart and i also vow to see this last forever in our life's I do love you and I'm afraid that I might wake up one day seeing you not talking to me anymore because of my situation. I don't know if I can still withstand another heartache. I've been through a lot of pains and God has been my sole witness. You're much blessed than me, so treasure every person you have in your life now, open your heart to forgiveness and accept that no one is to blame for the pains you went through in your past. Open you self to humility and allow God to work his plans on you. After all, we were created to love, care, trust, encourage, support one and another and even to serve God. Take care of our relationship. If we end up apart at the end of this journey, my heart will break but I will never sigh because I know which ever path we go, It was all Gods plan! Please i still believe you could do this for me without minding whatever anyone could say of things about us. Put away your fears and trust in me. This issue is really getting me so crazy and i need you to bring back peace to me once again and serenity, because you are able to transmit it, every day and every hour, the certainly that it’s thrilling to be alive.
When I look at you I breathe and the certainty that to me, having your company, I will feel realized until the fullness of my soul. You are everything I ever wanted in my life. You are everything I love and wanted to love. You give me this feeling of fulfillment like nothing else in the world can. I am sending you this letter with all my affection and for you to know how i feel about this whole issues. it was written with the painful soul intention of declaring my most pure and devoted love for you. I hope to see you understand and help me out with any little you could or your heart speak to you to help me with. With all my love and my sincerest gratitude, Kiss. Yours lover Kurt Fernando..