Romance scam letter(s) from Raymond Mudd to Anneli (Sweden) part 1
Letter 1

Hello again, You're amazing, I like the way you think, I'm elated. I'm excited that you want us to communicate despite the distance between the both of us. I'm also excited knowing a little more about you, I'd love to know about your past, your present and also your dreams. I'm happy to read that you were in New York City for the Marathon and also that you had a great time with your friends in New York. I was in Stockholm in October, I accompanied an Associate from Chicago to Stockholm for a business related event.I only decided to join Swedish Match after the wonderful impression I had of the women in Sweden. I truly think there's something special about Swedish women, in Sweden are on average more friendly than the ones in New York City, Swedish women are very sophisticated and have high standards, they've got an intrinsic sense of responsibility and family value, smart and well educated. I just sent you a short message, It will be a pleasure for me to tell you a little more about me, write short/long messages to each other, share pictures and also know a thing or two about each others Musical taste. P.S Check your mailbox for a message from Raymond Mudd.. Smiles,
Letter 2

Hello Anneli, Thanks for replying my message and also for your compliment. I had a big smile on my face when I read your message.. You come across like a gentle soul - I think you have a way of charming those around you, it would have been great for us to meet halfway, have tea/coffee and cookies but unfortunately we are miles apart..
I haven't had any luck yet on Match, I'm an American, I live in New York City, I was told about Match while I was in Sweden, I enjoyed my time there although it was short :) Actually, I decided to join this dating website because of the impression I had of Swedish women - Swedish women are beautiful, charming and down to earth ladies in the World. There's something I love about Swedish accent as well, so cool. I also think the women in Sweden are on average more friendly than the ones over here in New York City. I am going to be in Sweden in December. I'd want us to have lunch when I'm in Sweden. But before then maybe we could begin to know each other a little bit more. I would like to know you more and for you to get to know me also. Your profile picture is cute! Keep smiling, it looks good on you!!
Stay safe, enjoy your weekend and please talk soon hopefully! Cheers,
Letter 3

Hello Annoge,
How are you? I'm intrigued, I just visited your profile and as I read through your profile, I find the things you said about yourself quite fasinating. You seem cool and it sure doesn't hurt that you're quite pleasant to look at. Please, habe you had any luck on Match?
Letter 4

Hello Anneli, Good Morning from NYC!
Thanks for emailing back. I cannot thank you enough for the messages you sent to me on Match and I really do appreciate the fact that you don't have a problem being open/honest to a total stranger, it says a lot about your charming personality. I guess it's time I write to you a little more about me, I hope I don't bore you to death with my email.
Well, there's nothing much about me except that I'm secure & happy with myself, not arrogant with my thoughts but I believe it is important to seize every day. I am motivated everyday I get up in the morning and take my morning power walk or sometimes go to the gym if the weather permits. I love to be active whenever time permits and I love my job, so I'm very productive. My job as a Construction Manager is pretty hectic; it is my duty to schedule the project in logical steps and budget time required to meet deadlines, to determine labor requirements and dispatch workers to construction sites and also prepare contracts and negotiate revisions, changes and additions to contractual agreements with architects, consultants, clients, suppliers and subcontractors, etc.
Like you already know I'm also a father too, the name of my little man is Conrad. I lost my beautiful wife to lymphoma 3 years ago. Today I can talk about her to anyone. Like they say "Time heals all wounds" Now, I can look back and talk and remember my late wife with a smile. She was really beautiful, cool and everything you can think of an affectionate woman with a great sense of family value. All of us loved her, we still do and I know that when was she still with us, she knew we loved her.
I love spending my free time with my son, we play house, we watch cartoons, I teach him new words and sometimes teaches him how to draw too. Besides that, one of the most important things to me is my health and well-being so I've gotten into cooking recently- mainly healthy, wholesome dishes. I also read magazines to do with health and fitness and beauty. I really like reading. I read numerous articles on various subjects whenever time permits me. I also read books, I enjoy being deeply engrossed in another World created by the author of the book, to delve into the characters' minds, emotions and situations, to be mentally stimulated by the content of the book.
Apart from that, I like listening to music though that's almost always a complementary to something else that I'm doing. I listen to many genres of music and it's nice to loose yourself in the rhythm or lyrics. It's like listening to a story told in a few minutes coupled with music that sets the mood and atmosphere. Sometimes I watch movies as well. I do get overly critical about the pacing, the characters, the way everything plays out in them but it's definitely a fun thing for me. Watching movies makes me think since I can relate to certain incidents or I'd wonder about all the endless possibilities and choices. Singing lullaby to my little man and also reading bed time stories to him are enjoyable to me too. What do you do on your Spare time? I'd love to know so many things about you - Like your favorite color, your sweet and ugly side, your aim of joining Match?
I'd like to make a proposal that might be fun. What do you think about us sharing music whenever we exchange emails.. Probably it will be a way for us to know a little bit more about each other musical taste. Here it goes, a song I absolutely love. Hope you enjoy it.
Talk soon and please do not forget to keep a smiling face :)
Cheers, Raymond
Letter 5

Hello Anneli, Good Morning from NYC!
It's nice to hear from you, I want to say thank you so much for sharing a little more about you with me and also for sharing a beautiful song with me. My understanding of your email is that you're cautious, you're hard working and you're passionate. I'm sure that you love your job, it's very important for us to love what we do. Your job seems really interesting and pretty important too.
You're far too kind with your words, I've got a Nanny that comes to take care of my little man whenever I'm going out for my power walk and too busy with work.. It wasn't easy coping with the death of my wife but like they say when you've got kid(s) you've got to make a choice of whether to sink or swim.. Today, She's living through my little man, I'm sure she's proud of me and Conrad.
My aim of joining Match is too meet potential partners & find someone with some depth. I like to get to know people first before committing to anything. I am looking for a woman with an intrinsic sense of responsibility that sees life as a great adventure. And also a loving and affectionate woman that has got a great sense of family value(s). I'm a bit old fashioned and I only decided to join a dating site because of my work. Lately my work schedule has been hectic and I've been really busy with work. You know today we live in a scary world these days where everyone is really busy and always "walking" & "moving" so approaching someone in a bar or restaurant or at the mall is not my style because they might think you have a weird intentions. So, I prefer this dating site is a more formal better way of meeting someone so that after several chats and phone calls then you would have known about the person well enough to then plan a date. I'm sure that's the reason why you are on here too.
More about my personality, I am a free thinker and I respect all religions for I believe all religions are good balm to human souls. It's just some extreme and evil people with ulterior motives that uses religion as a decoy to fulfill their greed. We have to be intelligent to outsmart these people to realize the truth behind their motives. I put love and attention in my everyday life, it comes out naturally, and I think it's the best part of me... Although some associates always say that I am loyal, generous, funny and honest. I am normally a bit shy in the beginning but once I feel comfortable I can be extrovert, full of joy and bubbly. I drink occasionally but I do not smoke.
I'm the only child of my parents, my heritage is predominantly Scottish, a little Irish, a touch of English and also Spanish, on both my mother and father’s sides. I was born in Connecticut but raised in New York City by my Uncle, Big Uncle George, he's in his late 80s. I've attached pictures of him from his last birthday.. And also I have attached pictures of me and my little man as well. Uncle George is like the only family I got here because we are close. He lives in Williamsburg and I live in Greenpoint avenue, Brooklyn. Manhattan the main Borough of NYC, where most of the main attractions and where the tourists go. The greater NYC area is Penn Station. Penn Station is right in the heart of midtown Manhattan, close to many of the main attractions. Madison Square Garden is right upstairs, Macy's is a block away, Empire State Building is a couple blocks away, Times Square is 10 blocks away. There is a big shopping area right near Penn Station as well.
My job as a Construction Manager is pretty hectic. As they say coordinating one aspect of a construction is a difficult task, but coordinating the entire process, from initial planning and foundation work, to the last phase of construction demands organization, attention to detail, an ability to see the “big picture,” and an understanding of all facets of the construction process, usually acquired through experience. I'm the intermediary between my clients and my workers, between the architect and my subcontractors, and between the project and any regulatory personnel. It's expected of me by my clients to have a wide variety of skills and knowledge, including plumbing, basic electrician training, standard construction techniques, blueprint reading, budgeting, and purchasing.
It's also my job to convince and persuade my clients when there's a need for change that might lead to innumerable delays or cost increases, or to convince an unmotivated subcontractor to complete his job as required by a previous agreement. It's my job also to save my clients a considerable amount of money, take the time to learn the local building codes, because it is always better to know what you're getting yourself into in construction so that you don't get surprised in the middle of the job. Despite the high level of stress in my job, there's always sense of satisfaction among the crew I work with most times. I mean the intimate relationships between the builder and buyer, between architect and construction crew, and between construction workers, etc.
Well, this is my daily routine. I get up early every day, around 6:00 AM and I go to the gym for a work-out/power walk before I go to work. I usually do aerobic exercise for awhile and then do some weight lifting for maybe half an hour at the gym, then I'll return home, I have a cup of coffee and make breakfast. I usually read the newspaper while I have breakfast. My son like to have a shower after breakfast but I like to have a shower before breakfast. I have short hair so I comb my hair. How do you do your hair in the morning? And as I work from my home, I turn on my computer and start working on what needs to be done. I'll work until about 12:00 then I'll prepare lunch and have a fairly decent lunch then after lunch, I'll go back, continue working or whatever I have to do for work that includes going out for meetings, project site, etc. until about 6:00 PM.
After I have finished work, I cook dinner. In my house I usually make dinner for the family (Me and my little man) we eat dinner together at 7:30pm. After dinner I make sure that Conrad does his homework (drawing and painting) and then I chill out on the sofa and watch television. On television I usually watch the News while Conrad feeds the dog before he goes to bed and I tell him to go the bedroom. If whenever I am sick I have to take my medication, but then I get into my pyjamas and set the alarm so I wake up in the morning. The last things I do is lock the door, turn off the lights, and go to bed. That pretty much sums up my usual daily routine. While weekends I'm always with Conrad, I spend time with him indoors and outdoors.. We play house together, we go out bowling, to a nice restaurant, the movies, go get ice cream and that's it... Sometimes I do visit my Big Uncle George, he lives in a retirement home in Williamsburg
I hope I didn't bore you to death with my email. I'd like to know if you've met anyone online and the qualities you're looking for in man.
It will be great to chat with you sometime, just like as it's great for us to change emails. I’m sure we’re going to find the time... Maybe we will figure out for a time for us to do that in the future. I'm going to share one of my favorite song with you tonight by "Al Green -Simply Beautiful"
Take care and talk soon!
Cheers, Raymond.
Letter 6

Hello Anneli, Good Evening from NYC!
It's so lovely to hear about you.. Your routine.. Your life... And feel now like I'm talking to you, particularly after reading your email. Reading your email for me is the best part of my day because of your articulate way of writing. I think you always write from the overflow of your heart, rather than just looking for a way to write to me..
Talking about my parents, I never knew my parents, I was told by my grandmother that I lost both of them while I was a toddler.. Really, everything I know about them are things that relatives, my grandmother and Uncle George told me about my parents.. Judging by the things they say about my parents, I think the both of them were amazing, they were so much in love each other and guess that's why they both left the World the same day after they suffered a terrible car crash.
The pictures you shared with me are gorgeous, you're beautiful, you're such a lucky mother to have such gorgeous kids.. I'm sure Isabella and Jakob are growing up to be decent teens. Your words about you, the things you've said about your family and perception of dating website reminds me of a beautiful poem I love and like to read from time to time. It was written by Oriah Mountain Dreamer, a best-selling books author. It’s very deep, and also very true. Here it goes and I hope you like it. The Invitation by Oriah"It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain.I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it, or fade it, or fix it.I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own; if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, remember the limitations of being human.It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself. If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty every day. And if you can source your own life from its presence.I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand at the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, 'Yes.'It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children.It doesn't interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back.It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments."It's beautiful, isn't it?
Ms. Anneli, you seem to be a very busy woman but unlike me you can create time to have fun.. Maybe that's something you will have to teach me in the future. I'm such a lucky man to be communicating with you on here :) It would be lovely to meet someone special, who I really connect with, someone to make plans with and share life's ups and downs, who is honest, reliable, romantic and caring. My Ideal partner... I think the most important thing is that she must be herself, love herself, being able to relax, laugh and have a good time. I just want the woman I'm going to spend the rest of my life with to have a great sense of family value and be willing to accept my son.
I haven't met anyone from a dating website but my experience with dating sites at least the one here called plenty of fish is that people tend to develop several relationships at once and then just "pick" the best one in the end - that's why I decided to try Match - hoping that the matches on Match might be more serious about finding their true love and soul mate - I am not a multiple dater - and this concept really bothers me and again why I closed my plenty of fish profile. People tend to get addicted to the sites and then just keep looking thinking that they are going to find someone better than the person they have found ......
Also, I think dating websites are like magazines, you look and choose the one that seems most interesting, but many are only looking at the photo, but do not look at things in common, because if someone likes you but there is nothing in common, this is not pleasant for anyone.
And also right, today's reality, people are individualistic, do not take the time to sit down and communicate. Also there is a problem, they immediately put an end to the relationship. A relationship is made of joys and sorrows, and it is through trials the couple will be more stronger.
I'd like to know what's your ideal vacation? Your Ideal first date?
There's a particular song playing in my head by Luther Vandross that I'd love to share with you.. Please I'd want you to listen to the lyrics because that's the way I feel right now.
Weeeeell I've probably put it all out there enough for now, I will let you digest this and see what you have to say O:-). I'd like to know what you of think of long distance relationship and also if you think it's possible to have a relationship without initial physical contact at first?
Regardless of what may be, I look forward to hearing from you again!!!!
Letter 7

Hello Anneli, Good Evening from NYC!
Today has been like a slow movie. I had six hours meeting with an associate in Williamsburg, we had to plan things together, so I can make budget for the year 2015. When I arrived home I only saw numbers and figures. Tomorrow I will be going back to Williamsburg, I will be working till night. But then it get's little easier, so many things to do before holiday season, but luckily I've done much ahead :)
I think you're amazing, you're awesome!! I am afraid that I might have to compliment everything you said in your email but first let me say thank you so much for your email..... It really touched me. I have so many thoughts about the things you said, you have such a nice and clear way to describe your ideas and the expectations you have in life. It's an amazing virtue, don't ever loose that. You seem to be a very sensitive woman too. I've read your email over and over again and I must say that I'm the luckiest man alive to have been able to communicate with you despite the distance between the both of us.
You know I enjoyed reading your email because you always broaden my horizon with your views, you've got an amazing way of communicating and you want us to develop a great understanding, I want us allow things to flow naturally. I find it amazing that you always take out the positive from any negative situation you find yourself in. Well, maybe a little bit like you when it comes to making the best out of nothing.. I take each day as it comes, I am thankful for everyday I have and I try to make the most of every opportunity. I think there are lessons to be learned from everything that happens to us and so I look for the positives in everything and everyone.
I'm excited already about visiting the Museum in Stockholm, I always take my little man to the Museum over here.. Like you already know there are so many museums in NYC, I think according to NY.COM there are 83 museums in total among the five boroughs in New York City. Most New Yorkers believe that the Metropolitan Museum of Art is the BEST museum in the entire world. And definitely the very best in NYC. I've been to Guggenheim museum but I didn't notice the current exhibition ZERO: Countdown to Tomorrow.
Do you enjoy cooking? I think my favorite meal has got to be home made chicken soup. I don't enjoy cooking but I always try my best to make sure that I prepare two of my son's favorite meals.. Home made Chicken soup and also Chicken noodle soup. Conrad loves cheesecake and also ice cream, I think you know that already. I think my favorite salad has got to be Greek Salad and also I love cooking home made chicken soup for Conrad.. Conrad also love spaghetti with a simple but tasty sauce, he likes Pizza too, chicken nuggets, Grilled Cheese, Tacos but there favorite has got to be Chicken-noodle Soup made by me :) .lol
I appreciate the fact that you're quite open/honest with me on here because that's the only way we can be able to judge correctly if we can really get along or not. Right now, it feels like you're the one special friend I've been searching for all my life. I always feel special whenever you share your thoughts with me. I understand that the distance between us can be a little obstacle at the moment but I think that we can bridge that gap with constant communication.
Online dating is a little scary because you never know what you are going to get. People can hide behind a computer screen and will tell you one thing and then when you meet them they are nothing like what they have told you and they don't match their photo.
I'd like to tell you about my Ideal first date and also My Ideal vacation. My Ideal first date would be something simple.. Dinner in a nice restaurant , Just getting to know each other.. Lots of laughter .. Hug and kiss on the cheek goodnight... No Sexual innuendos.
My ideal vacation will be chilling in a place that it isn't time, a place that I can relax and forget all of my problems. Without work, phone, internet, traffic, money...
This place is a tropical island, and this Island will be located in the middle of the ocean. In this place I will go with a special person, and we take advantage of all the time. I think that a month in this tropical island is the fair time to recuperate energy and when I will come back I will be more relaxed.
I've experience long distance relationship but that was when I was quite young, I think I was 19 or so. I think you will agree with me that long distance relationship entails a lot. And I think that the cornerstone of long distance relationship is communication. Is Only through communication that one can be able to bridge the distance in our relationship, create an end goal, increase trust, overcome insecurity, and schedule visits before you can start living together in the future.
With the right person distance won't matter - only time will tell right !! Yes friendship is super important - of course there needs to be an Initial physical attraction but for the long haul an emotional , spiritual and intellectual bond is what's important!! As far as my take on a long distance relationship goes and dating -- well I guess it would require lots of emailing, phone calls, and trust big time.
I don't have a problem being open, vulnerable and loving.. If at the end of the day I'm wrong, I will say I try, I want to experience the beauty of long distance relationship (emotional, spiritual and intellectual) with anyone that I think is the right person.
Well, I guess if anything could develop between us we will have to compensate the lack of physical dating with constant emails, chats or phone calls. We know our situation is not the normal dating, but we know this the moment we started exchanging emails. I think, this way, we could develop a deep friendship that whether we end up with each other or not, our friendship would stay and remain strong.
I find it hard to find someone who wants to date or rather try a long distance relationship. Companionship is also hard to find, being with someone who is romantic and supportive, kind, and passionate is what I am looking for. I think this is the missing link in anyone's future. Do you agree with me?
I'd want us to continue to communicate and work on our friendship to see if we can have a relationship. I'm attracted to you, I like the way you write and I absolutely love the fact that you're amazing. I know it's quite early for me to say this but you look like the kind of woman I want in my life but I'm going to be patient here. I'd want us to know a lot about each other . For me monogamy in a relationship is very important and that cannot be over-emphasized.
Just so you know - I do want to express all my thoughts and feelings to you at this particular moment and yes this is all very intense for my brain and heart - I feel like I want to explode lol - not even kidding - How about you?
But on a more serious note somehow things have a way of working themselves out if it's meant to be ........ So what do you do to relax yourself after a stressful day.
Just so you know I Love reading your emails.. You're a beautiful woman that's humble and one that's class too.
Well, thinking of you - I wish you and your kids a great day over there.... And I hope you enjoy the song below;
I look forward to hearing from you soon.
Kisses, Raymond.
Letter 8

Hello My Moonlight, Good Evening from NYC!
Interesting things you said in your email. I think that we both have got a lot in common, most esp the way we think, the way we strive to understand each other better. I can't believe that I'm smiling here, giggling like piglet and I can't even find the words to express myself at the moment, if you were here right now, I guess I will probably be speechless.
I appreciate your honesty, you can write to me in Swedish and I will be able to read your email with the help of a translator and a dictionary. Like I said in one of my corresponding messages, I accompanied an associate to Sweden, we were at The Swedish Centre for Architecture and Design, we were there to see the fascinating drawings, models, design and sustainable urban development.. I stayed at the Old Town Lodge. I have only good things to say: friendly people, beautiful location, nice kitchen/showers, etc. I really cannot remember the names of places I went to in Stockholm but one of the best things I love about the city is that it is possible to walk just about everywhere, I love the saffron- and terracotta-toned architecture of Stockholm but everything about the city
My special hobbies while I was a teen was reading and writing, it was a way from me to get away from the harsh reality I was facing at my grandmother's.. I think you will probably want to hear more about that but please definitely sooner or later I will share my childhood story with you :) I schooled at the New York Institute of Technology.. Now, it's your turn to tell me about your favorite band, favorite sport and also your special hobbies as a teen. New York Institute of Technology
Tonight, I had an interesting Evening in Williamsburg. I met an Associate that's been on Vacation since the 27th of August. He's a research expert, I went to his office and after a chat with him then I was told a lot of great news.. The best ones were that two close associates, Bryan and Edith, have decided to get married, I'm very happy for them. Bryan is a research expert, sometimes he works with me on my team. His fiance is 5 months pregnant. They are going to have a boy who’s going to be named Jones. They're planning to get married after the birth of their son and I'm very happy for them. Edith is still a girl for me. At least, this is the way I see her. She’s only 27 and she’s a student.. She has a boyfriend and she got pregnant too. She’s almost 8 months pregnancy. They are going to have a baby girl, and they're going to name her Kim. Her boyfriend asked her to be his wife two weeks ago and she said yes. She’s a little crazy, but she’s so happy that I’m happy for her and wish them all the best.
The interesting thing that happened to me has nothing to do with that.. While I was in Williamsburg, I decided to visit Uncle George.. I saw him, I was all happy and talking about Conrad, Bryan and Edith, and about how happy I was for them, etc. Uncle George looked me, straight into my eyes, and said, very seriously: “-Come on! Cut it out! “Why don’t you tell me that you’re dating someone?”. I completely paralyzed in front of him. I was out of words and just kept there, looking at him and thinking ‘How could he do that?’. He somehow remembered you in that moment. Then, without a word from me, he turned again, at last, and said, in a very low and sweet tone, “You don’t have to worry. I won’t tell anyone. Good luck, you can go back home and please promise me you will spend the whole of the weekend with me!”. I got back to my car, I was speechless and I couldn't start the car.. I just kept laughing at myself. It was fun!
I always try to relax the best possible way but sometimes after a hectic day at work, I like to take a long bath in my over-sized tub that adds to the relaxing atmosphere in my bathroom. I start by adding fresh gardenia and rose petals to the tub before I add any water. The visual of the flowers being picked up and swirled around in the water is very calming and conducive to letting go of the constraints of the day. Bubbles are a must-have for me at the end of a long day; I turn the water up as high as it will go and then I add some of my favorite skin softening bubble bath and let it fill up until its half-full.
After my bath I meditate.. I always picture all worries being carried by the flower petals down to the drain where they are whisked away leaving me with only peace and harmony. It always good to have a little positive visualization.
I'm going to send this email off by letting you know a thing or two about where I live in New York City.. So that you can an idea about my environment.. I live in Greenpoint Avenue, Brooklyn New York.. Greenpoint is a great neighborhood, changing daily and with a fingerprint all its own. It has always been predominantly Polish up until the last few years wherein hipsters, artists, musicians and students moved in en masse due to the huge rent hike in Williamsburg. Greenpoint. It's close enough to Manhattan to feel connected, and yet the particular character of Greenpoint is its own: lofts, railroad apartments, a developing waterfront, and a mix of hip bars and restaurants and lower-key holdovers from the area's traditionally Polish residents. Greenpoint is really quaint and clean (by Brooklyn standards) and I would recommend it for anyone - even tourists.
Uncle George lives in Williamsburg landing, it's a retirement city in Williamsburg. I live in 3 bedroom house in New York City. . I owned my own house in a housing apartment.. In New York, In most cases, a house is owned by the person/people in it. An apartment is rented/leased to those who occupy it. An apartment is managed by a landlord and a house is managed by the person to whom it belongs to. In my case I'm in my own house. Do you understand me?
Greenpoint is just as entertaining during the day as it is at night. Among the many perks of living in Greenpoint is the history, namely in architecture. Various churches and schools constructed throughout the neighborhoods’ esteemed history are quite remarkable, and would be of interest to anyone with an eye and appreciation for meticulous detail. A wonderful day in Greenpoint is spent taking a walking tour through the many sections of this neighborhood which is filled with parks and outdoor leisure spaces.
Well, that's it about my neighborhood.. I'd love to know about yours.. I'd like to know if you think that there's a chemistry between us?
I'm going to share one of my favorite Beatles's song.. this particular one can make you fall in love.. haha. Enjoy the song.
It's time I start my day.. Enjoy your day and please talk soon!
Kyss, Raymond
Letter 9

Hello Anneli, Good Evening from NYC!
Thanks for your email and also for sharing with me a little more about you and your life style. It seems you live in a nice place and you do your best to enjoy every little moment the best way you can. I really do find your comment about my name quite funny. LOL. I'm Raymond Mudd, that's my real name, my nanny doesn't live with me in the house, she lives couple of blocks from my apartment and I think one of the reasons why you cannot find my name on the internet is maybe because I'm a luddite when it comes to social networking.
Tonight, I can't even find the words to express myself to let you know how I feel special whenever I read your emails, you're kind with your words and you also seem too good be to true as well. It's an amazing what's going on between the two of us.. I guess it's because we are compatible that's why we are getting along very well, things are flowing naturally for us, it looks like we've known each other for ages despite the distance between the both of us. I love the fact that you want to know so much about me, I can see a future for us already as great friends before any other thing.
I haven't met any lady that's as honest as you, I mean you're quite open/honest, you don't have problems expressing your feelings, all you crave for is better understanding between the both of us because that's the only way we can be able to tell if we've really got some depth or not. I decided to send you a message on Match after I visited your profile because I felt we were compatible. I sent couple of messages to other matches but I was attracted to yours. For me, the most important thing in a relationship is the connection between the partners and not the physical appearance of your partner. You're a beautiful lady, you seem genuine and I just want to know you more and more everyday.
I do dream about you whenever I think of you, the possibility of the both of us seeing each other and sometimes at night, I close my eyes and imagine that you're here with me.. I’m going to share with you this morning a song that I'm listening to at the moment and the song touches me deep inside. It’s nothing about what I'm writing to you (which is great, actually), but there’s something about the sax that chills me out. I used to dream that I was going to get married to this sax sound. I love it!
I have an important question to ask you......ARE YOU FOR REAL?? I mean, you seem to be so perfect that is kind of scary (lol)!!!!
I think that we have a lot in common and it’s being amazing communicating with you.. The communication between the both of us is great and I appreciate the fact that you always find a way to write to me despite your hectic schedule over there. I can’t deny the fact that I feel attracted to you based on the things you've shared with me about yourself.. You seem to be a very nice woman and I really want to get the chance to know you better, each day more. You are also very beautiful.
I don't believe much in sign, I'm a Virgo but I think that there's a chemistry between the both of us, judging by the way we want to communicate more often with each other. Reading your email is now becoming something special I hardly wait for, it gives me a great feeling. After the chit chat I had with Uncle George, I've been thinking a lot about you lately.. I didn't say much about you to him but hey he's like an old magician.. He knows everything that's happening.. lol.. I will tell you much more about Uncle George as we continue to exchange emails with one another. I just can't stop thinking about you, I think your beautiful words have captured my mind, I think the sound of your voice will be perfect and soft to my ears.
I'm happy that you've been very open to me in your emails, I'm amazed with the way you write me. I wish I'm very close to you but we're thousand miles apart but I believe that constant communication is the most important way to bridge the distance between us, and this is a chance for us to get to know each other a lot better and more intense.
It might be hard for us not being able to meet in person anytime we want, or not being able to have initial physical contact, but if we are committed to each other with the strong connections between us I'm sure we'll manage to handle it, our strong desires will keep us going to have a solid relationship.
I am also attracted to you and I hope there will be a chemistry between us to build a relationship. To be honest my heart is pounding just by writing to you and thinking about you at the same time. I also feel that you're the kind of woman I've been looking for, and I hope we could have a relationship. Perhaps we might be spending time together in the future.. it will definitely be all day and night.
I have a few very good friends Amanda she's my secretary and a wonderful long time friend, James who is an associate that lives in Michigan, we haven't see each other for some time but start off where we ended the last time we seen each other!
You seem to have all the good qualities I am looking for in a person to be part of mine and my son's life. I am expressing my feelings, emotions, thoughts, plans and dreams as I just think they all seem so real and could happen with you. I feel like I have to pinch myself when I am reading your emails, or responding to you..... Is it real? I love reading your email in bed before I go to bed and in the morning before I start work properly. I always read your email with a smile on my face and it seems like I can't wipe the smile off, it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy.
I hope you enjoy the second song I'm sharing with you below;
I wish you a wonderful day at work.... And, please give anyone close to you a warm hug from me! . Oh by the way I've not been on a official date in the last 3 blame it on Conrad and work. lol. Take care and I can't wait to read your next email.
Thinking of you more & more. You'll have the opportunity to hear my voice one day....and hope it will be fun for us to talk to each other on the phone...
Kisses, Raymond.
Letter 10

Hello Anneli,
Thank you so much for the beautiful pictures of your and your colleagues that you shared with me. No old School picture of yours will stop me from communicating with you... I'm sure interested in communicating with you. LOL.
Like you already know today is Thanksgiving day holiday in the U.S. It's a day that commemorates the good harvest of the Pilgrims in 1621. For us Americans today is more of just a day to get together with the family, and to have a big meal. But rather it's a time when we can all be thankful for what we have and we can all come together to be appreciative, no matter our religion, skin color, political views, etc.
Today, I've got a pretty hectic schedule “I’m so busy!” it’s not what I love but still, it’s what my life has become. But I’m thankful for those I work with (both past and present) – for their patience and their encouragement when I’ve gotten frustrated with myself and their camaraderie on and off the clock. I’m thankful for a job that has challenged me and caused me to learn, grow and stretch myself. I am also so thankful for an amazing staff that is willing to collaborate together as a team. What a blessing to work in an environment like this.
Am thankful for so much more. I'm thankful for my strong, gorgeous healthy son, I'm thankful that Uncle George is still part of my life, I'm thankful that my son is blessed to have an amazing nanny but above all I'm also thankful for being able to communicate with you every day and for the opportunity to read your daily activities despite the distance between the both of us.
Enjoy the second half of your day!

Letter 11

Hello Anneli, I really do cherish your emails!
I want to Welcome you to a beautiful weekend over there with smile on your face, LOVE in your "heart" Good Thoughts in your "mind"
I enjoyed reading from you, I cannot thank you enough for everything you shared with me in your email.. I can see clearly that I was never wrong about you - You sure know how to have fun, I'm afraid that's something I really do need in my life, maybe in the future you will spice up my life with all kind of beautiful events like the one you had today over there in Stockholm.
I do appreciate your email - I always read your messages more than once, so that I can have the chance to extract everything you share with me through the expressed words and in between, through the unwritten ones, without missing a thing. It's great, actually that you're completely honest with me.. In my mind, you're beautiful.. Understand that in my corresponding email I was sharing my feelings with you - Whenever I write to you I always say to you the things that come to my mind and I choose to be completely honest with you, with my feelings and I don't think there's anything wrong if sometimes we choose to dream a little bit. I'm realist, I see myself sometimes as a pessimist, I'm methodical in my thoughts, systematic in approach but I must say to you that Life is everything but a DREAM.
A dream is anything we can fathom, anything our hearts desire, anything at all. In life, we are always told to follow our dreams, by everyone, the State, religious leaders, and most esp our loved ones. Maybe right now my dream of having a Swedish girlfriend might seem unachievable, just aimless thoughts floating through mind. Mind you I'm not obsessed with my dream but if a dream is anything you want it to be, then there's no limit on what you can dream. I don't want to be lonely forever, I want a partner, I'm not in a hurry that's why I'm on a dating website, I dream of having a wife and being happy.. I'm not desperate but I hope to accomplish this before my little man becomes a full grown Man.
I love writing to you, being friends with you is a great thing. Like they say Friends are like diamonds. Diamonds are very rare and they're special Crystal. What makes it so rare and special is the fact that a diamond is the only Crystal that could be polished by another diamond. With you, I think I will have the opportunity to be a better person. I don't just want us to be mere friends but rather best-friends first before any other thing.
I know that you're REAL because you're perfect in my eyes, your words are food for my soul and I read your emails like a lovely novel. On Swedish Match I sent messages to other matches and two other ladies replied my messages, they were from Stockholm but both of them they didn't seem real and I ended communication with them because they were never interested in answering my questions. Right now you're the only one that I'm writing to exclusively, I want to you know you more and hope for the best between the both of us.
Well, I want to assure you that I'm real! But I'm certainly not perfect. Nobody is. Everyone has a shadow side! I do have mine too. But I try to be a positive person and let my sweet side drives me instead. But it does not mean that I don't handle my ugly side, we all have our difficulties, and revolutionizing them is one of the big challenges for us here in Earth. I do believe that every day I have a great opportunity to identify the things that are not my best for me or that somehow brings me grief and once I realize it, I'm able to transform it. Simple as that! But I guess I'm getting too deep at the moment, so I'll just change the subject for a while.
I deeply appreciate all your kind words and thoughts sent to me every day.. You know, I feel special whenever I read from you. You excite me with your words, I dream of building a house together with a partner that will be filled with love... But I know dreams are dreams and reality is reality. I'd want us to keep on communicating everyday, getting to know each other better and allow things to flow naturally.
I want you to know that your messages are absolutely priceless... Thank you for the loving kindness you bring to my soul. I always look forward to your email and the fresh perspective you give me whenever I read from you.
I hope you enjoy the song below :
Kyss, Raymond.
Letter 12

Hello My Moonlight, Good Evening from NYC!
It's feel great for me to read from you once again. How are you able to create so much time for leisures despite your hectic schedule.. I mean how do you do the things you do every now and then????? You're amazing, I really do not know how to play golf, I think one time I had a dream that I was Tiger Wood and then I woke up, I discovered that I'm still Raymond. LOL. I've got too much in my desk in this moment to learn how to play golf.. Do not get wrong me I'd love to learn how to play golf but maybe when I'm with you then you can teach me how to play golf..
This weekend I do intend to spend quality time with my little man, we will be attending a birthday party tomorrow somewhere in Greenpoint avenue and then on Sunday we are going to the movies after that we will go bowling, I'll get him his favorite ice cream and then return back home to play house. I think that should be my weekend but hopefully I will get some quality rest...
My typical weekend goes like this - Saturdays are my activity days if I'm not working, I do my laundry, cleaning, go to the grocery shop and then cook for Saturdays and Sundays, me and my little man go out for a walk, play at a park sometimes, we go bowling, then I get him is favorite ice-cream. Sundays are my lazy day, I mainly hang out at home while my little man goes to the Nanny's, they go to church, he plays with the kids over there and run the around the yard, when he's back we play with toys and sometimes we play house as well.
For some unknown reason I am completely speechless, I'm finding it so hard to compose my thought. I want to share my heart with you, I want you to know my entirety, I want to be the one that will make you smile all day and night. I really do what to know what you've been through in the past has made you an amazing person.. I adore you, I hope you know that I do cherish your emails!
Your emails give so much more than courage and motivation. Your emails make me feel better in every aspects! Your email always brighten up my day! Thank you so much for being you! I do want to know you more and I really hope for the best! I am just an ordinary man but it's obvious that we share the same worldview.. I always try to do my best and I know I deserve nothing less than that! I also feel that you deserve as much as I do all the best in life and that's what I sincerely wish for you and your gorgeous kids regardless of what might happen in the future between the both of us.
My dream right now is to be your best-friend before any other thing.. Yes, I'd want us to be partners but I believe that friendship is the best foundation for any kind of relationship. The communication between the both of us has blossom in the past week, we might only been communicating for a short time but the connection between us is something we cannot ignore at all. I understand that we've got to be careful with our feelings here but I believe that as long as we keep on having honest conversation with each other we will be able to tell if we are better off as friends or as partners.
I will tell you things about my past, things about my late wife, my dreams, my childhood, my fears and every single thing about me as we embark upon this journey of You and I getting to know each other everyday.. Please be patient with me, everyday I will share my World with you, I will tell you things about my past so that you can know me well.. No matter what you're perfect in my eyes.
Tonight, I do not know the song that I will share with you because my heart stop has beating for a while but I know exactly what music I'm going to share with you next. But I'll do it in my next email. I can't do it now. I'm sorry, I Saw this online and thought I should share it with you...

A unicorn represents a pure heart over flowing with love, innocence, kindness, charity, justice,sensitivity, truth,loyalty, beauty, and all things good. I'm sending you this unicorn greeting, because I see all of these special qualities in you. You're a magical spark in a world that sometimes seems dark. May your light never fail to touch hearts and souls leaving behind a feeling of peace and an assurance that goodness truly exists in the world. Thank you for being such an adorable person and I hope we find the love, loyalty and magic that we are looking here on Earth while our relationship continue to grow stronger. You make me feel so special. Kisses. Raymond
Letter 13

Hello My Darling Anneli,
How are you? I'm glad to read from you.... I can see that you had a great day over there.. I enjoyed reading about the program you watch on TV.. I'd love to watch the program, is it possible for you to record the program and then I watch it by the time I'm finally in Sweden.. Well, I had a great day over here with my little man although I feel guilty that I left him at the birthday party to attend a short but very important meeting with a client.. I'm actually excited about the both of us watching a movie tomorrow, then getting him is favorite ice cream and then playing house before I put him to bed.
Do you know that I always love reading from you because you light up my World with your words.. In the past week you've been my best friend :) I know I said that we've got a take things slowly with each other but hey we are free to express our emotions, right? Do you know that I always love reading your messages. You excite me, your humility, your sense of family value(s) and also the fact that you care so much about me and my little man makes me feel loved by you. Although I might not sound like the Beatles but I'd love to sing your favorite songs to you for the rest days of my life..... I want the best for the both of us and I believe that we are capable of building a solid foundation for our relationship. Do you think that your family will accept me as your man?
You know how they say wine gets better with age, what else gets better with age? I think it's amazing people like you.. I'm a lucky man to be the only one you've been writing to exclusively, you're special to me. I can feel there is a connection with you and I do hope it will develop further from being friends to best friends, soul-mates and life partners if possible, time would tell. The long distance won't be an issue if we're connected and have things in common. A decent relationship has to be built from strong connections, joys and sorrows.
I'm up late with thoughts of you in my head. I read somewhere that one of the joys in life is waking up each day and going to bed with thoughts that somewhere, someone cares enough to send a warm greetings to us! Sometimes I wonder why people worry too much in life when tomorrow is not promise.. I feel it's necessary for us to embrace everyday with so much joy, love and happiness and always remind ourselves whenever we are face with obstacles that the light is at the end of the tunnel.
When I met you on the dating website I wasn't planning to fall in love with you but rather I wanted to be friends with you and then we developed a bond. I want our relationship to grow stronger, I want us to communicate more often, I want us to be able to express our thoughts with each other because I believe that it's only through honest conversation we can be able to build a solid foundation for our relationship.. I understand that we are thousand of miles apart but I always feel warm in my heart whenever I'm writing to you, you mean so much to me, your words are food for my soul and I read your emails like a lovely book.
We might have been communicating only for a short time but my heart will always feel and say to me that you're amazing woman.. Maybe one day I will wake up next to you in the morning and hold you in my arms when you sleep at night but until then I will keep on believing in my dreams.. Can I say our dreams of a future together????????? Time will tell if we are better off as mere friends or great partners..
I send this email off to you with a quote and my favorite Latino song below :
"Pure love has no conditions or boundaries. Love does not restrain itself or hold back. Love gives all the time and doesn't ask for anything in return. Love is a continuous flow without any limits. And all of this is inside you."
May peace and joy be with you. Kisses, Raymond.
Letter 14

Hello Beautiful,
How are you? Hopefully great! Thank you so much for everything you shared with me in your email... I love the video you shared with me... Actually, I cannot stop giggling, laughing and smiling because of your email. I love the way you write... I'm lying in bed, listening to OUR songs while I write to you. I dream of the day that we are going to be together listening to our songs... ;-) I really do appreciate the communication between the both of us.. Tonight, I read all the emails you've been sending to me right from the very day we started communicating because I felt the need for me to understand you better and I understand what I need to do to make you see that despite the distance between the both of us we can always build a solid foundation for our relationship before we get to meet for each for the first time. I really want you to know that I enjoyed reading all of them, I love the way you write to me and I'm filled with so much love in my heart. I've got so much love that I want to share with you, these days I always wake up thinking of you, thinking about everything that is going on between us. I haven't been able think about any other thing for the last few days, I'm up late tonight with a big smile on my face and with a great song playing in my head too.. I'm going to share two songs with you one by Sir Paul McCartney and another which is one of my favorite song by Bon Jovi.
Here goes the first song; You can listen to it while you read my email.... I really do want to know more about you - your past, your history and everything you've been through that has made you to become a wonderful woman.. I want to know your fears and sorrows, your worries and dreams and all the expectations and plans you have in life - But the one thing I know already is that you seem to be everything I am looking for and I'm very happy and glad that we've found each other. I really am and I can't hide it at all! Each email I read from you has made me to admire you more and more and I'm positive that we are going to be very happy together, if we ever get on that level.. It's just something I believe in without any rational explanation. In my eyes and heart we are totally compatible.. So, what worries me at the moment is not about what we've been through in the past or present status because I believe we are a complete match. What worries at the moment is if we, you and I, will be patient enough to build a solid foundation for our relationship.
You're an amazing woman, you're beautiful and I don't expect you to have the body of 21 year old girl.. I know that the most important thing for anyone in our age today is not just sex but rather love, the need for us to be with a partner that will treat us with so much love, care and affection. Love is everything, I think we have many things in common: thoughts, values, sense of responsibility and love for our families. I've thought about the possibilities of the both of us living together, I think first we've to spend some quality time together before we make a decision of us spending more time together again in the future.
It's time I share somethings about my son with you that you might not know. My son loves to put on my deodorant though he does not have an odor problem but I think if my son wants to practice good hygiene. I guess he wants to be like his daddy :) Conrad likes to line up his toys though he does not do that often these days.. But I find that sometimes crazy. Conrad is very smart and has to have things in order with lining everything up like his books, kitchen toys. Conrad sometimes help me with everything I do like laundry or cleaning he yells at me that he wants to help. I think Conrad wants to be helpful and organized and he likes things to be consistent, like with our dog the first time he gave him a treat he was laying down in a room and just about every time after he makes the dog lay down before he gets his treat in the same spot every time. I call him my lil clean freak.
Me! Mine! No! and I do it! Are some of the favorite words of Conrad.. But some of other Conrad's favorite words are, Daddy, Mrs. Ruiz, milk, juice, hello, bye-bye, yes, no, dog , cat , ball , nose, eye, banana , Ice-Cream, cookie, car, hot, thank-you, bath, shoe, hat, book, more, good-night.
The amazing thing about Conrad is that he's a very confident toddler. He does not have a gender identity disorder for now. I will try my best to share more things about my son with you whenever I write you these days.. Its important for you to know lots about him and despite his attitudes he's harmless.. I'm his punching bag but I'd like him to stop hitting me because I always explain to me that hitting is not acceptable in the house. Conrad on rare occasion has this bad habit of hitting me before he explain what he wants. I've told him that once he turns five, whenever he does that there will be immediate and unpleasant consequences, that there will be punishment for bad behavior.
At home Conrad rather watch a cartoon on tv than go through their humor books.. Conrad I think love arts-because he hardly say a word whenever he sees a book with lots of pictures and drawings.
Tonight, I feel comfortable enough to write you about my late wife.. It wasn't easy for me to move on after the death of my wife. My wife Lisa died of lymphoma in November 2010, we loved each other very much, and we had lived together for a long time. She was smart, sexy, funny and courageous, she combined her busy career by helping me building our small construction company, she was loving and loyal to her family, and friends, she was inspiration while living with cancer, when she was sick she was worried because she could not give me something that she wanted to and thought I needed. She is still helping others after dying as she donated her body to a Medical School and that decision made her family mad.
Lisa did not want to die, but nor did she fear death. She was grateful to have had enough notice of her death to be able to do many things that she wanted to do first. And she wanted to die peacefully and painlessly rather than have to suffer needlessly before dying. Lisa died suddenly but naturally, so we had the benefit of not having to worry about needless suffering at the end. And living through all of this with her has made me much more comfortable about facing my own death when it happens.
I think that you were surprised that I didn't have a girlfriend after the death of my wife. A year after the death of my wife, I met many girls and very nice ones, I don't want to remain alone but in two or three meetings they all seem ashes. Right now, I'm ready to move on with my life, to start something new. My dream has always been to build a home that will be filled with my happiness.
I know that I said to you that I haven't been on an official date in the last three years because in reality I have not. But I have been on a few dates nothing that has interested me. I have been very focused on getting to know myself for the past three years, have never had that desire to just fall for anyone to have a title of having a girlfriend. I have always known within myself that I am going to meet that someone and have an amazing life.....magic!
It is not easy raise to a son and also to commit yourself to relationship but I believe that we can always make things work when we committed to whatever we are doing/building..
God, I can feel my heart beat so fast now while I'm writing you this email. Let me breathe for a minute.. I want you to know that I cherish you and I want to trust you with my heart and my little man's heart !!! You compliment me very well.. I think I am right to say to you that you're my Dream Girl, I see myself finding you so special. I'm sited here and wondering what's going on between the both of us. I know that it's only a matter of time before we are going to be certain about the bond. I know in my heart that if you're my woman I can't help it but to learn how to love you daily, freely, purely, passionately, madly, ideally, rightly.. I know that I'm going to love you too much.. I hope you can see the possibility of us building a solid foundation for our relationship despite the distance between the both of us, I also hope that you can see the distance between us as a blessing in disguise. Let's keep communicating and keep on working on our relationship
I am attracted to you physically, emotionally & intellectually when writing to you as it gives me that .....zing feeling ! I hope it develops into a great relationship that's what I'm fond of saying to myself these days. I really don't know if I'm replying your email in the appropriate way I'm suppose to respond to it, I just want you to know that everything I write to you is from my heart. I'm attracted to you and I'm sure by now you must been wondering how come I can't find someone so attractive over here but I guess that's the question both of us can't answer at the moment. I will be honest it has entered my mind on several occasions where I have asked myself why is she still single and writing to me? Though that thought was at the start, now I love to just write away to you, I take it one day at a time and love the moment!
My goal is to build a house that will be filled with happiness with the help of my partner, I wish we can see each other right away, have a drink, communicate and feel the connection between us but I guess that might be in the next couple of weeks but the foundation will build today will determine our tomorrow.
I'm aware that we can't predict what happens in the future. Relationship at times can be complicated in my view. It is like running a business. You need to give it a lot of attention to make sure it's running well. It might be hard for us not being able to meet in person anytime we want, or not being able to have initial physical contact, but if we are committed to each other with the strong connections between us I'm sure we'll manage to handle it, our strong desires will keep us going to have a solid relationship.
My darling Anneli, I always say a prayer for you and your kids every night before I go to bed.. I always pray that you have a day full of radiance: that the morning might be clear, that the afternoon keeps on with its brightness and that the night might give you the best hours of your life. Starting a day sometimes might be difficult but do not despair because you are strong and capable. Stay calm, because everything is going to be okay. Everything is going to turn out just fine. Just be careful to fulfill your part just right, because I want all of you and I want to give you all of me in return.
I love your replies to my emails they are just perfect in so many ways please don't change the way you reply; as long as we are honest to each other.
Here goes my second song of the day.. Enjoy and have an awesome working week that will be filled with love and happiness;
You're My Dream Girl.
P.S Here's my cell phone # +1 (516) 535-9263, please you must know that I'm terrible with my cell phone but with the house phone you can always get on the whenever I'm at home.. Here's the house # +1 (347) 851-7531.
Letter 15

Hello My Beautiful Anneli, Good Evening!

I got your text, I sent you, please did you get it? My understanding of your email is that you're simply the best. I enjoyed reading your e-mail, for a second I do not know what to say or write to you at the moment but I appreciate the fact that you're completely honest with me. I understand the content of your email, with everything you shared with me in your email, I can't help it but rather adore you. You're a special kind of woman, I thank the universe that we both met each other online and what's important is the bond between the both of us.

I used to have one year old blue Pitbull that I've raised since he was 8 weeks old. Initially I was afraid of getting this dog because of my little man but after 5 minutes with him he had my heart, and nothing’s changed. He's totally a loveable dog; He's such a clown, his personality is HUGE, he loves children and being around people. He also loves to go for runs and wrestle with me.. He has a softer side; we share cooking and cuddling time. He greets me with kisses every morning. He's amazingly smart and a jokester at times. But I just gave the dog away because of my hectic work schedule, it's been taking care of the day these days, my work schedule changed and I had to give the dog away.

Tonight, I'd like to thank you sharing your history with me.. I think The relationship you had back then made you who you are. And helped shaped the woman you are today, so it is fitting that you tell me about it so that I can know you better, know your history and know how to approach you with my feelings. These experiences are life changing, perhaps written in the stars and as predestined events ... If we knew of them before hand we would not choose them and we would miss out on rich experiences and be different people. I appreciate that if you had your choice from the beginning you wouldn't have opted for your to be heart broken but again you learned important lessons. However we are mere mortals that are part of a bigger plan... Perhaps we need to surrender to this and make the best of the events that are brought our way.

There's something about my late Wife that I didn't write in my last email and it's to do with the birth of Conrad. My late wife got pregnant at the age of 38, me and my late wife always wanted to have a Child but unfortunately weren't lucky not until when she was 38, the news of Lisa's pregnancy felt like such a gift.. I was happy and couldn't believe that she was pregnant and then came the heavy bleeding and contractions, the rushed trip to her doctor, the ambulance ride to the Hospital. The doctors came back and said it was cancer, on that particular day she was six-months-pregnant diagnosed with stage-5 diffufe large B cell lymphoma. The news made me cried, I went pieces and our first reaction was denial; I told that the doctor that it's impossible that she's got cancer everywhere, all of a sudden.

Moreover Lisa's doctor had thought the on-and-off bleeding she experienced throughout the pregnancy was due to a benign dermatologic condition, lichen planus, inside her vagina. In one sense, her late diagnosis was a blessing in disguse for us. If the cancer had been discovered in her first trimester, she would have been strongly encouraged to abort, because we were told that chemotherapy can’t be given while the fetal organs are forming. Fortunately, the scientific debate that raged during the 1980s and ’90s about continuing pregnancy after a second- or third-trimester diagnosis has been resolved, with researchers concluding that staying pregnant does not impede a woman’s ability to survive cancer.

We were relieved to know that her disease could be treated without ending her pregnancy. The diagnosis became a motivation to fight for us, she won the fight and then we had Conrad (A blessing) but unfortunately she lost the fight to cancer couple of months after the birth of Conrad.. Conrad sees the Nanny as his Mom but there's a picture of his mother in the house, I died when I lost my wife, it was hard for me to move and if not for our Child I wonder what would have happened to me. I wish she's here for Conrad's sake but there's no need to complain too much because I believe she's up there watching over Conrad and she knows that she's loved by us. I'm enjoying the ordinary fun that comes with being the father of a toddler: playing together, listening to music and dancing, taking my son to preschool.

Sometimes it's not easy for me to share my story with you but I feel the need for me to share these with you so that we can know each other better, know our pasts, our present state of mind so that we can be able to build a future together. I appreciate the fact that we are having a sincere conversation with each other, that both of us don't have a problem being open/honest and vulnerable. I find you adorable, stories of your life and your family means the entire World to you..

It's a privilege for me to be able to read from you despite your hectic schedule over there, I wish I can respond to your emails in more details but funny enough the only thing I can think about or rather write to you is the way I feel about you, about us at the moment.. Please you will have to forgive me for this because all I want to write about is how you've made me cheerful with your emails, your beautiful words.. I never thought that it will be possible for me to find something special about another woman. My Secretary kept on asking why I was smiling so big in the morning while I was sited on my desk and I just told her about you but I sure know I can't hold it for long.

Can I call you my love? You have a special place in my heart and I want to spend my life with you. These days I'm always thinking about you and thoughts of you always keep me calm. They say love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart. Love has no barriers and no distances. The distance may be far but from within the heart the relationship of love is a very close one. It is only the long distance that keeps the lovers apart.

I am so lucky to have met you online, although I haven't met you in person but I've already got this good sign in my heart about you, my instinct tells me that you're the one who could make me happy. I look forward to the day am going to see you, I believe that I will receive a big hug and kiss from you.. I'm sure that I will give you the most memorable kiss you can ever imagine, will rant over so many things, from the build up to our first meeting.. its going to be bliss I can imagine it even though we are miles apart.

Will sure cook for you one day, cos its going to be fun doing that, with around me in the kitchen smiling and making it a lot less stressful.. lol.. And I know that we are going to spoil each other with so much love. I'm looking for that unique relationship, where there is love, affection, trust, honesty, commitment, determination and adventure or should I concluded by saying that I'm looking for a life partner to share all with, to cuddle up with at the end of the day. I hope I'm not scaring you off but I just want to be honest upfront with you, so you know what I seek here.

I will pray for our relationship to grow stronger despite the long distance between us, I would like to love you with all my heart, I would like to share my dreams, aspirations and that of my son with you. Like I've said earlier this is the first time I'm finding someone special on an online dating, so I was quite skeptical. But I learned with you to give a chance and just write and talk and feel if this was right. So I left the fear of something unknown and just give a chance, and the result has been this beautiful communication between us, in which you know I'm thinking of you, Isabella and Jakob, and I know you are thinking of me and Conrad as well. So of course the faith and patient is here..also I know it is not a coincidence that we are communicating because our souls were looking for something with value and quality, so it's more faith on this. About patient is up to us make some actions to keep and grow the feelings, to make it more real what we are built here, because where the treasure are, our heart is on....and where the heart is, the thoughts are. ..and where the thoughts are, the actions go everything match and the happiness appears!!! :)

I can't find the perfect words to express how I feel presently but I know one thing for sure that we're not too close in distance. We're not too near in miles but your emails touch my hearts and thoughts of you brings me smiles. I appreciate your honesty and I like the fact that you're overt with me, I want us to be able to share our history and stories together - be open, vulnerable and loving as we about to embark upon the journey.

I believe wholeheartedly that you and I are compatible and also that we are capable of building a strong foundation for our relationship - I look forward to learning everything about you - what makes you happy or sad or what upsets you - and want to have the opportunity to show you how I feel about you !!

Although we are miles and miles and miles apart, so far your messages have touched my heart. Every message I get from you seem to give me a sense of belonging that we can create a beautiful relationship together. The distance between us may be far but from within the heart the relationship of love is a very close one. It is only the long distance that keeps the lovers apart. I want us to keep understanding each other and try a long distance relationship that will be based on trust, commitment, dedication and honesty.

I don't know what is greater for two human souls to feel that they are joined. Your messages strengthen me and it puts fun in my life and joy in my heart. I want to share this lovely quote with you which I think is so true and maybe you will see this before you go to work and it will bring a smile to your face and a joy in your heart.

"The happiness of life is made up of minute fractions—the little soon-forgotten charities of a kiss, a smile, a kind look, a heartfelt compliment in the disguise of a playful raillery, and the countless other infinitesimals of pleasurable thought and genial feeling." - Samuel Taylor Coleridge

I adore you.... I Love the communication between us and I want my love for you to be a natural thing, I know that I will love you more and more everyday.

P.S I do intend to call you within the next 24 hours.. hahaa.

Letter 16

Good Evening My Love! Thank you so much for
your wonderful email. I'm sorry that I missed your calls, I was out for a meeting but thanks for the voice mail.. I could finally hear your voice, what time do you want me to call you tomorrow?
Your friend "Ulrika" is just as crazy like my Secretary. LOL They both want us to be together asap and I think the both of us wants to take everything one step at a time... Funny enough my Secretary suggested that I fly to Sweden so that the both of us can meet but in her she was only teasing me because she knows that work schedule is pretty hectic at the moment.
I enjoyed reading your email, everything you shared with me is beautiful.. You know we share some many things in common, the way we understand each other and it seems like we've the same Worldview. It's great what's going on between the both of us, we are meant for each other, I want you to know that you've made me more cheerful. I think what's going between the both of us is called Synchronicity, right? And it's been wonderful! Besides, apparently the both of us are looking for the same thing and I think, maybe, that's the reason we are so happy whenever we hear from each other. It has being so great to get the opportunity to know you better. I keep on thinking how could the both of us in such different conditions and living so far away from each other get so close and also so connected.. It's maybe something I will never get a rational explanation.. What I do know rationally is that I'm very lucky to have met you online! I admire you very much! Talking about synchronicity? I read somewhere that you may or may not know you have met your twin when you finally do meet them in person or online even. The feeling of knowing a twin-flame often feels like seeing the 11:11. You may get a feeling of magnetic attraction that you can’t explain, a familiarity or inner ‘knowing’ that you just can’t seem to put into words, but the feeling may match the feelings you experience in dreams or vision that you had prior to the meeting. You may feel that you are at home or that you are picking up where you left off. There may be many synchronicity and parallels between both souls. Dynamics and synchronicities such as these can occur in important soul mate connections as well, and in some unique situations the soul mate is somehow connected to the twin-flame. Everyday I get to know you more, everyday you excite me with your thoughts and it gives me so much joy. I feel great about the both of us, I feel great about the connection between the both of us and also the fact that you want us to embark on this beautiful journey of emotional, intellectual and spiritual bonding despite the fact that we are thousand of miles apart. I am writing you this short email to let you know that I want to be the reason why you smile everyday, I want to be the reason for the happiness in your heart, the spring in your step and the song on your lips. I adore you, it feels great to know that me and Conrad are important to you. Conrad and I will like to be part of your life, you're caring, lovely, family orientated and I'm so glad that you're mine.. You make me happy, you make me feel special.. I always wish for the best for the both of us. And it includes you, Jacob and Isabella as well. I trust, with all my heart, that whatever it happens, it’s going to be the best for all of us. Tonight, I'm going to share a song by John Newman titled "Love Me Again" Have a great day at work.. And please remember that you mean so much to me :) Love, Raymond
Letter 17

Hello My Love,
It was great for me to finally hear the sound of your voice, I've got to admit that you sounded exactly like what I would like it to be, and I love it.... although I may be too excited and probably talked a bit senseless :-). You sound so close to me, and so familiar, like I have known you for a long time. After I heard, I haven't been able to get hold of myself, considering the sound of your voice is so incredible. You're incredible
I really do wish that I was there to help you with your cleaning, I'm quite handy with the vacuum cleaner and also when it comes to mowing the lawn. I use Dove Deodorant Products and also Dove Face care for men.. I like the way you write to me and sometimes I wish that I could write to you in that manner.. These days its hard for me not to talk about my emotions, about the way I feel, about how I'd love us to spend some quality time together in the future.. Everything that's going on between the both of us is beautiful, we both know what we mean to each other and as the day goes by I keep on falling in love with you. I'd love to go places with you, I'd love to kiss you, let the entire World know that you mean so much to me, hold your hand in public place but above all I will always remember to let you know how you mean the entire World to me.. You already know that I'm attracted to you, that I'm happy to write to you and I look forward to the day that I will look you in the eyes and let you know how you mean the entire World me.
I'm that excited about you and I, you're wonderful! You are the reason why I smile these days and you're the happiness in my heart, I really want this feeling for the rest of my life. You always amaze me, do you know what you've done to me my love? You've made me find you more attractive. I get to read from you everyday and I feel like I'm a big part of your World, please correct me if I'm wrong. I'd love to help you wash your car, motivate you to exercise everyday not because I want you to have a hot body but because it's healthy. You're amazing, I don't even know what to say or I think that it will be better for me to share my Childhood story with you.
Tonight, I'd like to tell you a story about my past that may not only surprise you, but also be a source of inspiration to you. It's not only about transformation, but I hope you see it as a story of what's possible when that little light inside you finally turns on, and illuminates to you a world of possibilities that was always there, but you just didn't see.
Like you already know I am an only child, no sister, no brother, no one to stand up for me when things go wrong, no one to lean on for comfort. I was treated more like a slave or maid than anything else growing up in my home. My cousins felt they had the right to pick on me and abuse me and so did my aunts and uncles except Uncle George. After all, I was a boy living with his grandmother who nobody really cared about. If I told her what they did to me, she just choose to ignore me, turn her head, look the other way or call me a straight out liar. I felt I had no one to talk to or help me.
As a teenager I was forced to stay in the house with my grandmother, to clean, to cook, to take care of her while my life passed me by. I could not have friends, go to parties, talk on the phone, participate in sports or anything social. The only thing I could do was go to school and come home. Most of the time I stayed in my room writing stories during my free time because that’s all I could do to entertain myself. Uncle George finally bought me a TV and I was allowed to rent movies and go to the library, that was my social life.
At the age of 16 I weighed 75lbs, I was so skinny and malnourished that my spinal cord bones poked through my back and left bruises on my skin. People often complained that I looked sick, a lot of people thought I was on drugs, but the true reason was that I wasn’t getting enough to eat. I was always hungry. Anyone that had any sense could tell I needed help, but everyone chose to cover up the secret that we barely had food to eat. My grandmother got $20 worth of food stamps a month that was supposed to feed her and myself. When food got low, she lied and told neighbors we had food, but I wasn’t cooking for her and they would bring her plates of food, but not any for me and I would sit there and watch her eat in front of me wondering why I was being left out. My grandmother was such a good Christian woman who prayed for people and cared about them why would she lie and abuse or mistreat me for any reason? I was just a teenage boy and that automatically made me not trust worthy and yet they couldn’t figure out why I was so damn thin and sickly all the time.
At seventeen I had to move out from the house to find a means to get things I needed to keep me through.. My Uncle George was fine with me going to community college but my grandmother did not like me going to a university, that would mean I would have to leave my grandmother behind for them to take care of. They discouraged me as much as possible to the fact I had to put myself through college. I end up taking the greyhound bus there. I worked part-time jobs and supported myself. After going to three different colleges I finally graduated, but this time I didn’t participate in the graduation, I just picked me degree from the office the next day because I knew no one would come.
I haven’t had the chance to meet any nice people yet in my life. They all start off nice and sweet, but change greatly after a few years. I have always been caring, loving, kind, but people seem to see that as a weakness. They see my peaceful and quiet spirit as someone they think they can walk all over and knowing that I’m on my own they try to take me for granted. The world is not a nice place, it’s actually rather cruel, but I often wonder will I ever get a break?
But today my World is a different story.. I've been able to make out something from nothing. My World was a different story after I met my late wife, she gave me so much reason to believe in myself and understand that everything in life is just a mere challenge. After I met her my World completely changed, I became more cheerful, happy and had so much joy to share with the World.. Although all this came to an end after her death but like they say when you've got a child you either choose to swim or sink.. Today, you've made me more cheerful, you've given me enough reasons to be happy and that's why I feel it is important for me to tell you about my past because I'm grateful to the universe and my lucky stars for sending me an Angel.
I can only imagine that first kiss when we'll meet, I am sure it will be memorable! I know that I am correct in saying that nothing is greater than two human souls to be joined and I believe this is showing between us; We write so freely to one another and appear to want the same things out of a relationship. If you ask me why our conversation seems always compatible, I really have no answer, I feel the same way and keep thinking how in the World you can give me so much comfort and security.. I consider my self as a strong person, but it's wonderful having someone beside me and tell me that everything will be alright..
And I believe that you are the right person for me.. Your gentle soul and kindness gives me so much hope of life that I am not alone.. That there is someone that care and will protect me and Conrad for the rest of our lives.. Your emails are always incredibly sweet and romantic, it always touches my heart and soul. I've never been happy like this in the past four years in my life until I met you, you're a miracle that God gives me Sweetheart, I'm so grateful to the Universe for giving you to me.
Your beautiful words always send shivers to my soul. I can't find the perfect word to describe how I feel at the moment, you've completely changed my World.. You've opened my eyes and heart just enough and let me live, you've changed my world with magic and the kindness that you give. You have changed my world, made me believe life is giving me a miracle. I'm filled with so much emotions tonight and I just want to let you know how I feel about you, about us my love..
I’m so lucky to have you in my life everyday we communicate is another day that I'm thankful and so incredibly happy. You have a special way of making me feel more valuable than I believe I am. Your soft and gentle words, your soft words speak to my heart. You make me happy, you fill my world with hope, you’ve changed my life in ways you’ll never know.
When I met you on Match I wasn't planning to fall in love. Seriously, I wasn't even looking for a new best friend. You changed all that, the attraction was electric and unexpected. You've opened my eyes and heart just enough and let me live, you've changed my world with magic and the kindness that you give. My heart was broken when I lost my wife, and I thought love was so far away, but you came into my World and within the past week you've showed me a better day. You don't realize what you have and what you've done for me, but the way you managed to steal my heart is what has set me free.
You've given me a feeling that no one else could ever change, your love has touched a place in me that I always found so strange. It's as if you were cut right out of a spell cast upon my heart, because the crazy thing about it is, I've loved you from the start.
I wish to share this Ralph Waldo Emerson quote below :
“This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.”
Within these short period of time, you've changed my life. You've expand my horizons. You're my confidant. I know that we are going to keep on growing strong everyday.. You are very special to me and hold a place in my heart which creates such a positive attitude!
Thinking of you in so many ways take care.
Lots of love from your Man, Raymond Mudd.
Letter 18

Hello the love of my life,
I'm sure that you must have heard of the outrage and debate in NYC after a grand jury's decision not to indict a Police officer in death of Eric Garner. It's truly moving to see so many people of various backgrounds standing for and against something that is hurting so many in America. I haven't been able to join in this protest in the streets of New York City because of my work and my son but on Tv and in the newspaper I could feel the energy in New Yorkers. I never knew that New Yorkers could ever be interested in protesting because before now the concept of protest seems outdated in NYC.
I'm sorry to read about the situation with Isabella, I hope she's getting much better.. I'd love to come to Sweden and have the best Christmas vacation ever with you.. And also spend the first day of the New Year together but it won't be possible for me to travel with Conrad because Lisa's family wants him to be with them for the Christmas and New Year vacation.
After I read your email, I haven't been able to get hold of myself, considering the things you said my love. You're incredible. I'm not quite sure how to respond to your email. I do believe that I have become a big part of your day, you're a big part of my World and part of my dreams. Like I've said, I'm trying to keep my feet on the ground but I won't mind if I get carried away by your lovely aura. I will continue to be true to myself and share my feelings, experiences and take the opportunity presented to me, to communicate with you, forge a solid foundation for the relationship we are building my love and who knows what else...
I do think perhaps because we are looking for the same thing, that is why we have connected, found each other, please do not break my heart.. I have been through more than enough. I know the things you've been through and I will never play with your heart. I understand that lies and deception we both find abhorrent, inexcusable, especially at the expense of others who are acting out of goodness, innocence and decency.
I will share further ugly sides of myself as I suppose I'm experiencing them now... I am not a cynic but an optimist, always more positive than negative, but I do worry that I become too prematurely attached. I am lonely and want love in my life again, life is always about risk, I do not have a problem being open/honest and vulnerable. So my ugly side is when I connect I want more and more of that person, more and more contact.. I crave it and when I do not get it, it saddens me and I have to reign in my worries and insecurities. But I feel secured with you, you've given me a great sense of belonging and security that my heart is safe with you.
The communication between the two of us has made me appreciate life more than I used to despite the things I've been through in the past. The past is the past but sometimes the way we handle things in our past determine our attitude towards life. I realize that it is the experiences that I have had, that has made me the man I am today - therefore, I am grateful for them, even though it came very close to breaking me completely. After everything you've said to me in the past weeks, I cannot help it but rather admit that you're my hero, you're not just my dream girl but also my everyday inspiration, I want the best for the both of us and I believe in what is happening between the both of us.
With that being said, I'd like to let you know that you live in my heart and I do believe that I live in yours too, every time I read your email, my heart beats like a discomposed machine whenever your pictures appears.. You make me feel like a kid in a candy shop. The things I went through in the past has made me a better person and also has changed my approach to life. I can't stop smiling big because you care so much about me, I feel loved by you, you want to know everything about me, the way I live, the way I think and above all if you're interested in making me a better person by being my partner.
I know it might sound and seem crazy to others if you tried to explain our relationship and that we've only been communicating for only for some time but it is real - and this is happening and even though your thousands of miles away you don't feel that far to me - guess that's because your close to me in mind and in spirit - I can feel your sweetness and your love .... Wow imagine once we actually meet.
Last night after a busy day working with a new research expert, I decided to go out to a pub and had fun - I've never seen or heard this local artist before - she was amazing - this pub was a little dive nothing much but it's places like that true talent comes to life - When I was listening to the music while I was sitting there I was thinking of you the entire time and dreaming of doing something like that with you one day - enjoying a fun night out - hanging out all day, building love and memories together and having a nice dinner at home and then putting our little ones to bed - getting a babysitter and then spending quality fun time with you !!!
I believe in us and what's happening here more than anything else too - its important for you to know I long to be near you and go to sleep and wake up by your side everyday - I know this will all take time for it all to come together and fall into place but I'm willing to wait for all the " ducks" to be lined up - for now I cherish each and every second we spend together communicating....
I appreciate your quality and you are the kind of woman, I want to grow old with.. I'd love us to spend some quality time together, I can only imagine the day my lips will connect with yours and the day that we are going to make love.. but now I'm focused on bridging the distance between us with better communication. It's quite early I've already told my Nanny about you and then my Secretary. Amazingly I haven't said much about you to Conrad because he only cares about his chocolate but as time goes on, I'll tell him more about you. I guess love knows no distance - And for true unconditional love anything is possible and worth it!!
I read and hear your wonderful words and feelings but imagine what it will be like to actually feel each others love and be able to show it!!
When I saw your profile on Match I knew that there was something about you - something special!! I want to share a special song with you, one of my favorite song of all time;
Everyday I'm falling in love with you.. Just so you know lately I do everything with beautiful thoughts of you.
Letter 19

Hello My Love,
Thank you so much for your email, I love reading your messages during the day, I love it because after reading your email I start smiling from the moment I read it to the moment I go to bed. You're special to me in many ways, we are perfect for each other and I look forward to the day that we are going to be together my sweet love.
I'm sorry that I missed your calls I was away when you called but I believe that we can have a good conversation on the phone tomorrow.. You've got so much to do tomorrow and I wonder when would you want us to talk on the phone my love? Isabella is as strong as her mother.. I hope the both of you can get hold of her friend Engla and tell her everything is just fine.
Presently I'm working on a big project proposal with clients from Asia and it's a construction project.. My jobs can range from a small remodeling or renovation job to the construction of a large commercial structure, and like you already know I'm self employed... My job as a Construction manager entails a lot just like mothers... As a Construction Manager in America, I've set schedules, keep an eye on finances, make sure everybody is where they're supposed to be every day (and doing what they're supposed to be doing), I ensure there are no safety hazards around, and, in general, keep everyone happy. More specifically, when it comes handling projects I'm hired to lead and oversee a variety of building projects from start to finish.
I just decided to listen to your voice-mail once again...LOL.. I cannot stop thinking of the sound of your beautiful voice, you've such an awesome voice and I think you can sing like a bird :). You're so beautiful my angel.. I've been thinking a lot about the things we've been through in the past, it's amazing that ever since we got to know each other, life has been splendid and without us realizing, we are in love again.. Your presence in my life has brought joy and laughter apart from the happiness that completes everything that a man ever wanted in his life.
I know no relationship is perfect, I want to learn your language and I want us to be together til the end of time. I just want you to know that I will never shut you out, there's no way I'm going to break your heart, you mean so much to me. What really excite me about our relationship is that both of us are committed to what we are building, we are giving our all to this relationship, relationships they say take time and effort, especially in the beginning but once the foundation is strongly established the trust, work and effort isn't an issue. I believe it's what you give in a relationship, you get back in return; If both parties only give 50% then they will only have a 50% relationship. It is when both give 100% that you have a rich and fulfilling relationship. Does this make sense to you my love?
I'd like to share this quote with you so that you will understand what I am saying perfectly well;
"An intimate relationship does not banish loneliness. Only when we are comfortable with who we are can we truly function independently in a healthy way, can we truly function within a relationship. Two halves do not make a whole when it comes to a healthy relationship: it takes two wholes."-Patricia Fry
I'd want us to spend quality time together, I'd want us to go on a beautiful vacation together.. I know it's going to be such an awesome experience for us to be together, I will probably spend the whole day and night staring at your beautiful eyes.. sure I'd love to be so close to you so that I touch you, kiss you softly and let you know how you mean so much more to me. Thoughts of me curling up to you, holding you tight all night gives me the chills. I'd rather want to experience this than talking about it with you..
My love there's a song playing in my head that I want you to listen to;
And the second one describe the way I feel about you; "Simple The Best" by "Tina Turner"
It gives me a great sense of belonging to know that I'm always in your thoughts... It will be a dream come through for me to take care of you everyday for the rest of my life, for me to be your man, your best-friend and the kind of man you want in your life. I adore and I think that the both of us are meant for each other.. I never thought for a second when I joined a dating website that I will be falling for someone so far, but whenever I'm writing you an email I feel so close to you.. I want to hear your voice every now and then, I want you to hold me in your arms, I want to kiss your lips, I want you to perceive my cologne, as well...
I love reading your emails, really makes my day :-) You are so very important to me. And I know one day in the future we will be sleeping in each others arms. I know we haven't know each other for long, but I can tell you I feel absolutely on cloud nine.. I feel like a little boy in a candy shop so excited when I read your messages you make me feel so very important. Distance never separates two hearts that really care, for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there. But whenever I'm feeling sad because I miss you, I always remind myself how lucky I am to have someone so special like you to miss all the time.
I feel a bit weak but I need to concentrate on a contract proposal I need to send off to a client in Asia tomorrow morning. Let me leave you now my beautiful.. It's time I end my day with beautiful thoughts of you.. Of us... And I know that I will be smiling all night while sleeping just like you, knowing I'm in your thoughts and heart. Close together or far apart, you're always in my heart... You always make me feel happy. I LOVE YOU
Letter 20

Good Morning My Love,
What a feeling to wake up this morning to a lovely text from you.. I hope you're having a great at Vasa museum and that Isabella is doing great as well. I will be available for us to talk on the phone, 4:00 PM or 5:00 PM my time. I really do appreciate the communication between the both of us, if there's anything that I come to adore about you is your honesty and I really do appreciate the fact that you're always completely honest with me. I think the day we met on Match we were both looking at the same thing, I do believe that you were meant to be a major part of my life and have become that. You always know the right things to say and always bring smiles to my face with the words that you write. Reading your emails or writing to you during the day or in the middle of night is like winning the lottery because it makes me just as happy like a kid. I know that I might sound like a dreamer but I really do find you special.. It's really beautiful what's going on between the both of us.. The average person probably would think we are crazy, but it is what it is, isn't it? Can't deny what is going on, what we feel, I do deeply feel connected to you, how we communicate, Share our thoughts etc...
Yesterday, my Secretary and Nanny said that I've got to be careful with you because not every single lady on the internet should be trusted because most of them have got all kind of issues, like financial problem, drinking issues and all kind of issues. But I want you to know that I believe in you very much, I trust you and I think that the day will meet will be magical and so lovely for the both of us. I look so forward to the day that we are going to be together and I will count the minutes until we can be together.
Irrespective of what you might think of my email or what the future holds for us, today, I want to say thank you so much for caring about me in the past few weeks, for seeing the best in me that I did not see in myself, for always sharing your heart with me, for loving me, blessing me and above all for seeing the best in us in the midst of the distance and language barriers between the both of us….. I really do believe that day after day since I met you online my heart is getting back its compass and I am becoming more and more calm because of you.. There are so many things I'd want us to do together in the future.. I'd love to prepare breakfast, lunch and dinner for you my love.. You mean so much to me and I just want us to understand each other better. I'd love to come to Sweden and have the best winter vacation with you my love.
I think it's time for me to write to you about the concept of family in the U.S which might be different to the concept of your family in Sweden. Most American families consist of a mother and father with an average of 1-3 children.. It is very common in most families that both of the mother and the father are employed full time and are at work while their children are at school or a daycare facility.. There are a large number of families in the United state that consist of one single parent and children as a result of divorce or being unwed. In most families, once the child has become a teenager and graduated from high school, he or she leaves the home and lives an independent lifestyle. Most Americans families, regardless of where they are located, will all get together to celebrate family occasions such as weddings, reunions, birthdays, Thanksgiving, Christmas, and other holidays..
In the U.S., the parents of an adult person are not considered their dependents or part of his/her immediate family..
Some people get married and divorced several times, or even have children out of wedlock.. Relationships are sometimes confusing.. It is not uncommon to hear phrases like "she is my father's wife" (not necessarily the mother), "he is my mother's boyfriend." or "he is my son's father" (not necessarily the husband).
Americans when reflecting about relationship, I suspect we (Americans) are more inclined to think in terms of the personal attributes of that special person as opposed to the nature of one's relationship with him or her. Nevertheless, personally I think that there are numerous dimensions to consider in any interpersonal bond, particularly one as central as a relationship.. I believe that trust, chemistry, understanding and compatibility are the main ingredients for making a relationship a success.. While an intense chemistry may help ignite a relationship, it's the compatibility between the couple that sustains a relationship in the long run. A couple might initially profess to enjoying each others company, but it's the intimate understanding between them that sustains them through the various vicissitudes of life. While an intense chemistry brings a couple closer, it's the comforting compatibility that finally leads to a strong connection that lasts for a lifetime.
I'd like to share the image below with you.

I saw this image and thought of us taking tea together. When you need I will prepare a tea for you. I like tea. I love lemon tea, it's delicious. I think for us Saturday morning will be the perfect time for us to drink tea and be embraced under the blankets. I want to have this experience with you for a long time. What else can I tell you about myself my beautiful Anneli.. So much to learn about each other, I always sleep on the right side of my bed, although I'm trying to change that and also I have a favorite pillow...
I look forward to reading from you and also to hear the sound of your beautiful voice. I Wish you a wonderful weekend that will be filled with all the greatest things in the World. If anything goes wrong always remember that at the end everything is going to be alright and if things do not go as planned, it’s just because it’s not over yet! Remember also that you can always count on me for anything.. I will always be here rooting and praying for you and sending you all the best wishes and thoughts. Always remember that you mean so much to me. Can't wait for us to share our growing love with each other.
P.S I want you to remember that the amount of love I give you won’t change because of the distance, you’re the reason why I've been so happy for the past few weeks. I think of you all the time, I want you more today that I did yesterday, I find you more special today than I did yesterday. It’s so good to communicate with you, share personal things about me with you and have the chance to know you better with every little thing you share with me about yourself daily. I Love You
Letter 21

Hello My Love,
Thank you for your beautiful words! And for everything you shared with me, I like every picture you shared with me.. I've attached recent pictures of Conrad to my email and he wants me to share the pictures with Jakob and Isabella.. He wishes Isabella a quick recovery and also a big hug from him. LOL
After our phone conversation I've been smiling from ear to ear although I was little bit down because of the terrible experience I had when I went out earlier to the grocery shop. Someone stole my laptop and the new cell phone I got from my car. The whole situation is frustrating but I can't stop laughing. I actually got that cell phone because I'm tired of using my archaic Old Motorola flip phone from the 19th century and now I'm stuck with my old phone. lol. I'm writing to you with an archaic HP laptop, actually it's my old laptop before I got a new one.. I guess you can call me a Luddite, right? :( lol.
Well, your email is so amazing, I've thought about everything you said in your email and I really do appreciate your honesty. Thinking of you always makes me smile and knowing that thoughts of me makes you smile even makes me smile bigger *Big Grin*..... Sometimes, out of the blue, I get this intense feeling that you are thinking of me, right then and there, and it fills me with such joy and happiness that I have to stop whatever I am doing at that moment and just enjoy these feelings.
I'm happy that you want us to spend some quality time together. I just want to be with you all day and night. I see you as a precious diamond, you're my diamond and I want you to live in my heart forever baby. I am so happy about the prospect of being able to share my life with an amazing soul that cares so much about her gorgeous kids, about her friends, about her job and also about me and my Conrad.. I think that we will be able to connect on every level, and that you have the depth that I need in a partner and a life companion. My love, they say that compatibility and understanding are two of the main ingredients of a life long connection but I would also like to add appreciation and respect to that cocktail and shake it up with deliberate intent and consciousness.
Writing to you is the most beautiful part of my day. Thank you for bringing me such happiness, such sweet feelings. No matter where we end up, no matter what happens between us, you have been part of putting ME back together. I'm so pleased to see you in your emails that I bring a smile to your face, my only wish is to fill your heart with goodness and bring calm to your life. Partnerships are about compliment, COMPLETION. Creating a package deal!!! I think we are a perfect package, there's a great understanding developing between the both of us and we are in love with each other.
I was told by the Nanny that online dating is scary, that I should be careful, that you never know if people are who they say they are and loneliness makes us all vulnerable and I'm sure that's what people will say to you whenever you tell them about us. But I am pleased to hear you have faith in me, that you've faith in us, I have shared my concerns with you and I suppose we don't have to hold ourselves back because of a little fear that we don't want to be heart-broken again. The both of us have surrender to each other, we both know what we want and we are perfect for each other. It's amazing that you've turned your experiences with men into attributes.
Maybe you do have some issues trusting men but who wouldn't after having their heart broken? But I can see clearly that you've turned these experiences into attributes.. From the things you shared with me about your past, you have been through sheer hell but came out the other side, you might have crossed the line from mad to sane a thousand times and back again.. But it has made you a better woman for it. You're an amazing woman my love, you're open to love and I can't thank you enough for welcoming me into your heart with open arms. I would never take advantage of you or your loving giving nature or compromise you..
And I know in my heart you totally care about me and my little man and you will never hurt us. I will be honest with you my sweet love, I have a strong conscience, I'm open and honest sometimes to my detriment. I am not a liar or a cheat. I strongly believe that patience is all it takes to enjoy the nurturing side of a long distance relationship before any initial physical contact with the safety of distance.
I know I need to stop talking now, I need to sign off, but I'm struggling to, I don't want to finish. Just like not wanting, to hang up the phone.. Oh Anneli, what are you doing to me is beautiful. I think you already know the song I'm going to share with you... Here it goes baby;
My love, I can't wait to feel your arms embracing me! And just like you, I’m counting the minutes until we talk on the phone between 3:30 PM to 5:00 PM my time. OMG, I'm babbling, I must let you go. Until your next email beautiful, remember you mean so much to me and I love the communication between the both of us.
I Love You! Goodnight from New York City
Created: 2014-12-26    Last updated: 2014-12-26    Views: 860
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